Over the years, these notebooks have served as dream journals, art sketchbooks, a sounding board for frustrations and disappointments, goals and plans for the future, a récord of failures as well as celebrations of major accomplishments, highs and lows and everything in between. Each day began with a running spiral heading, a positive symbol for moving forward and keeping the flow. A great amount of inner and spiritual work resulted from ´writing down the bones´. These pages fostered my growth as a woman and as an artist. Pages were often filled with doodles in the margins or drawings of symbols covering the entire page of text. Slipped inside the book were folded letters, a few photographs, quotes or images torn out of magazines that held importance.
These books also became companions on my travels, a place to jot down observations on the sacred sites I visited along with my feelings and revelations along the way. Notes from Newgrange in Ireland, to Uluru, Australia and the Temple in Knossos, Crete to my spirit Quest at Grace Cathedral. When I wrote my book, Art and Sacred Sites: Connecting with Spirit of Place, I was able to use these journals as resource for dates, names, and pertinent information from my pilgrimages. This wasn´t an easy task, since I rarely dated my entries.
But having gleaned the information for my book, the journals have served their purpose. I know it´s now time to let them go. Stacks of journals too many to count become baggage and ready to be released. Time to cut the strings from the past and burn the pages, letting the past hurts, anger, relationships go up in smoke. I will always keep the good memories in my heart. Time to BURN!
Last night, I set up a copper ritual vessel in my back yard and with the help of a friend, lit the fire and began. We probably got through 35 journals, feeding handfuls of paper into the pyre. Tonight for Winter Solstice, I will continue the burning process in a fire releasing ceremony, inviting friends to take part in their own cleansing.
And tomorrow I will open a fresh page, in a new journal and start anew.